Wrathful and Unrepentant Jade (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
jadedmusings) wrote2012-09-07 05:28 pm
jadedmusings) wrote2012-09-07 05:28 pm
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WoW: Need to vent a little.
So, someone from Steadfast contacted me. This was a good thing, yes, and I maybe be a bit teary-eyed after our conversation and some letters in my in-game mailbox on Folami. We exchanged battletags and if Steadfast ever needs a hand, she knows they can reach out to me if I'm available.
However, there is one thing that's irritating me. They're running FL now. And going after the staff. The cynical part of me is thinking that since now it's been given to a guardian/officer and I left them, suddenly they want to go for it all over again. It hurts, frankly, and while I know I left abruptly (to them, not to me), I tried so hard to encourage FL runs and to get us there. I had to battle against Tygor and then I had to battle against, well, there being no raiding happening and trying to say I was willing to do the work, but I couldn't do it alone. Never seemed to have more than one or two people on my side, and I spent, literally, hours on the solo portion of that quest. I had to watch videos and redo my talents, and my UI and...gah, it was hard as a Warlock. My repair bill was in the triple digits twice.
I know, I know, I chose to leave. I knew what it was when I left. And while I left, I didn't lose any of my progress on the quest, so I can bring it up for later when we're all level 90 and can faceroll through FL to farm it, so it's not something I'll never have, just something I'll never have with the one place I wanted it.
And I know it wasn't the person's intentions to twist the knife or to guilt me. Really, it wasn't, and I do still mean I'd love to help out if I'm needed. I have been upset about leaving, even if I recognize that I feel better on WrA and I'm getting my feet back under me (Horde side, at least). It just stings a little know now that I'm out of the picture, they've suddenly got the fire back (hah, pun) to go after Dragonwrath.
Oh, and they cleared DS on 10-man normal. So maybe it was me that was the problem and was holding people back. Yeah, and I'm supposed to raid Sunday afternoon and maybe take a healer through LFR.
So, yeah, feeling like utter shit and like a loser. No, not over leaving, but over the same old self-esteem issues cropping up and feeling like I mattered or was even ever needed by people. Hey, it's a theme from this summer in real life too. Sigh.
Yeah, yeah, I'm whiny. Move along, nothing to see here.
However, there is one thing that's irritating me. They're running FL now. And going after the staff. The cynical part of me is thinking that since now it's been given to a guardian/officer and I left them, suddenly they want to go for it all over again. It hurts, frankly, and while I know I left abruptly (to them, not to me), I tried so hard to encourage FL runs and to get us there. I had to battle against Tygor and then I had to battle against, well, there being no raiding happening and trying to say I was willing to do the work, but I couldn't do it alone. Never seemed to have more than one or two people on my side, and I spent, literally, hours on the solo portion of that quest. I had to watch videos and redo my talents, and my UI and...gah, it was hard as a Warlock. My repair bill was in the triple digits twice.
I know, I know, I chose to leave. I knew what it was when I left. And while I left, I didn't lose any of my progress on the quest, so I can bring it up for later when we're all level 90 and can faceroll through FL to farm it, so it's not something I'll never have, just something I'll never have with the one place I wanted it.
And I know it wasn't the person's intentions to twist the knife or to guilt me. Really, it wasn't, and I do still mean I'd love to help out if I'm needed. I have been upset about leaving, even if I recognize that I feel better on WrA and I'm getting my feet back under me (Horde side, at least). It just stings a little know now that I'm out of the picture, they've suddenly got the fire back (hah, pun) to go after Dragonwrath.
Oh, and they cleared DS on 10-man normal. So maybe it was me that was the problem and was holding people back. Yeah, and I'm supposed to raid Sunday afternoon and maybe take a healer through LFR.
So, yeah, feeling like utter shit and like a loser. No, not over leaving, but over the same old self-esteem issues cropping up and feeling like I mattered or was even ever needed by people. Hey, it's a theme from this summer in real life too. Sigh.
Yeah, yeah, I'm whiny. Move along, nothing to see here.