With apologies to Da Vinci's Notebook

[02:00:11] <Andrew> o/~ I Grand Summon my enormous penis | And my troubles get Gigaflare'd away ~\o

Yes, he's my boyfriend. I swear he's an adult.

If you want to hear the song, here it is (possibly NSFW):

Don't read into this.

"Call Me"
Shinedown

Wrap me in a bolt of lightning
Send me on my way still smiling
Maybe that's the way I should go,
Straight into the mouth of the unknown
I left the spare key on the table
Never really thought I'd be able to say
I merely visit on the weekends
I lost my whole life and a dear friend

I've said it so many times
I would change my ways
No, nevermind
God knows I've tried

[Chorus]
Call me a sinner, call me a saint
Tell me it's over I'll still love you the same
Call me your favorite, call me the worst
Tell me it's over I don't wan't you to hurt
It's all that I can say. So, I'll be on my way

I finally put it all together,
But nothing really lasts forever
I had to make a choice that was not mine,
I had to say goodbye for the last time
I kept my whole life in suitcase,
Never really stayed in one place
Maybe that's the way it should be,
You know I've led my life like a gypsy

I've said it so many times
I would change my ways
No, nevermind
God knows I've tried

[Chorus]
Call me a sinner, call me a saint
Tell me it's over I'll still love you the same
Call me your favorite, call me the worst
Tell me it's over I don't wan't you to hurt
It's all that I can say. So, I'll be on my way

I'll always keep you inside, you healed my
Heart and my life... And you know I try.

[Chorus]
Call me a sinner, call me a saint
Tell me it's over I'll still love you the same
Call me your favorite, call me the worst
Tell me it's over I don't wan't you to hurt
It's all that I can say. So, I'll be on my way
So, I'll be on my way
So, I'll be on my way

Decision Time

I'm giving some serious thought to shutting down my Fourth Age campaign and starting over from scratch. There are many reasons for this, the biggest of which is that I started the campaign around the time Dad got really sick and there's many painful memories wrapped up in that. Another big reason is that it was the catalyst that ended a friendship too. I try to keep going and make new memories, but it seems I'm doomed to have people and/or events bring everything up again.

I'll probably decide by tonight since I need to do it soon as I'm supposed to be doing individual things with the players.

Funny. I thought it'd hurt more than this, but then again I was already having a very bad morning.

P.S.: If anyone has a problem with something I've done, call me on it when it happens and not weeks or even months after. Just saying.

ETA: Yeah, I think it's over. I'll close up shop, rework the whole damn thing and then re-open it if anyone even wants to deal with me anymore. I can't handle all this old crap still hanging on after a year, and I'm too pissed off and hurt by a few people to keep going on the same path.

Like I said, just going to completely retool everything, including that shitty map. Probably drop a couple of races or add others, and use less ORD. Of course, I'll probably just fail at it all again like I've done everything else, but I've been known to keep trying at something long past when I should have given up.