Excuse me while I get all sentimental.
May. 5th, 2009 09:58 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jadedmusingsThree years ago around late-March, I joined some guild campaign called Adventurer's Guild. It was dead by June, having imploded in on itself due to a poorly constructed setting, but by that point I'd found another campaign to join called Silvertech. Thus began my membership in a community of assholes known as #returners. I've made some awesome friends, lost friends who were also awesome and that I miss dearly, and I've even managed to make a couple of people hate me (the feeling is mutual in case you were wondering).
So happy anniversary of my arrival to a community full of the best bastards I know online.
Three years ago today, I was doing an open roleplay in Adventurer's Guild with my first FFRPG third-edition charater, an Elvaan Swordmaster named Pasha. That night, my character struck up a conversation with another character, a conversation that went on for many hours. Eventually, the character's player had to bow out and said he was catching a plane for a week-long vacation some place. He said he would talk to me later, but I'd been on the Internet long enough to know that people come and go, especially when they say they're going away for a weeks' worth of time. I thought to myself at the time, "That was fun, too bad I'll never see him again." One week later, he logged back online and /query'd me, completely surprising me. We talked Out-of-Character for a long time and even flirted a bit, but it was innocent. He didn't think me odd for having a kid, being in an open relationship at that time, having tattoos, or anything I threw at him. He thought I was fun, and I thought he had great sense of humor and was a great roleplayer.
That was how I became friends with Sam. How we got from being friends with the occasional benefits to a monogamous couple is a long, long story. Suffice to say, our relationship's history is as weird as we are, and if you had told me three years ago that I'd be with Sam, I would have laughed in your face and said, "It's a nice thought, but there's just no way." Yeah. My life is strange that way, but hey, it works. He was there to help me realize how unhealthy my relationship with Tet was, and he never once pushed me to leave Tofu, only offered to listen to tell me that he would be there as my friend when I needed him (along with Elisha at that time) once I'd made the decision to leave. He called me the day they discovered Dad's tumor, and he was the first friend I talked to the night Dad died. In a short three years, he's been there for me through more than most people, and never once has he complained or denied me a shoulder to cry on.
I won't sit here and confess my undying love. I won't say that this is it for me. I don't know that, and I don't know that I ever will know that. What I do know is that, for the first time in a long time I'm happy. I know that we have a solid friendship and our relationship, despite a couple of bumps in the road here and there, has a very stable foundation. I'm comfortable, sated, and content to stay where I am. Honestly, I don't really see this changing.
We haven't been a couple for three years (and I can't really pinpoint when we did become a couple - that really just kind of happened when I wasn't looking), but we have been friends for three years, and without that, we wouldn't have the romantic relationship we do.
Sam, you are possibly my weirdest relationship to date, and that's probably because you're the most normal and sane boyfriend I've ever had, even if you don't look like anything resembling "normal." I love you, and I'm glad you're my friend first.
So happy anniversary of my arrival to a community full of the best bastards I know online.
Three years ago today, I was doing an open roleplay in Adventurer's Guild with my first FFRPG third-edition charater, an Elvaan Swordmaster named Pasha. That night, my character struck up a conversation with another character, a conversation that went on for many hours. Eventually, the character's player had to bow out and said he was catching a plane for a week-long vacation some place. He said he would talk to me later, but I'd been on the Internet long enough to know that people come and go, especially when they say they're going away for a weeks' worth of time. I thought to myself at the time, "That was fun, too bad I'll never see him again." One week later, he logged back online and /query'd me, completely surprising me. We talked Out-of-Character for a long time and even flirted a bit, but it was innocent. He didn't think me odd for having a kid, being in an open relationship at that time, having tattoos, or anything I threw at him. He thought I was fun, and I thought he had great sense of humor and was a great roleplayer.
That was how I became friends with Sam. How we got from being friends with the occasional benefits to a monogamous couple is a long, long story. Suffice to say, our relationship's history is as weird as we are, and if you had told me three years ago that I'd be with Sam, I would have laughed in your face and said, "It's a nice thought, but there's just no way." Yeah. My life is strange that way, but hey, it works. He was there to help me realize how unhealthy my relationship with Tet was, and he never once pushed me to leave Tofu, only offered to listen to tell me that he would be there as my friend when I needed him (along with Elisha at that time) once I'd made the decision to leave. He called me the day they discovered Dad's tumor, and he was the first friend I talked to the night Dad died. In a short three years, he's been there for me through more than most people, and never once has he complained or denied me a shoulder to cry on.
I won't sit here and confess my undying love. I won't say that this is it for me. I don't know that, and I don't know that I ever will know that. What I do know is that, for the first time in a long time I'm happy. I know that we have a solid friendship and our relationship, despite a couple of bumps in the road here and there, has a very stable foundation. I'm comfortable, sated, and content to stay where I am. Honestly, I don't really see this changing.
We haven't been a couple for three years (and I can't really pinpoint when we did become a couple - that really just kind of happened when I wasn't looking), but we have been friends for three years, and without that, we wouldn't have the romantic relationship we do.
Sam, you are possibly my weirdest relationship to date, and that's probably because you're the most normal and sane boyfriend I've ever had, even if you don't look like anything resembling "normal." I love you, and I'm glad you're my friend first.
