It's a New Year
Jan. 2nd, 2011 04:00 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jadedmusingsAs of January 1, 2011, I am thirty years old. So long, twenties. Don't let the door smack you in the ass on the way out because I sure as hell won't cry any tears over you.
I've noticed that many, many people on LJ have said that 2010 was a shitty year for them. I can't say the same, but my gauge for judging how crappy a year was is probably a bit screwed up compared to others. 2010 wasn't a great year, and the only thing I can really say about it is that I finally moved out of South Carolina, hopefully for good. Other than that, 2010 was pretty "meh" for me. Some pretty crappy things happened, things I haven't talked about here because, well, I've been keeping a lot to myself and sort of hiding from everyone in a way, but nice things happened too. Nobody died, at least, and it does appear that everyone is relatively healthy.
I think this is the year that I realized how broken I am and have been for years, and I don't really mean that in a bad way. It's more that I see that there's things that need to be fixed and I have some healing to do, which I knew, I just didn't know how much. I've been forced to look at some ugly truths about myself, my past, and my family. It isn't pleasant, but then again, change and growth aren't always pleasant.
2011 looks like it might be a year that'll have some rough patches, but it also looks like it's going to be a good year.
No resolutions; I haven't made any of those since I was a kid. However, I do promise that I'm going to keep working on myself and working hard to make my life better, and I happen to believe my thirties are going to be way more awesome than my twenties could ever hoped to have been.
I've noticed that many, many people on LJ have said that 2010 was a shitty year for them. I can't say the same, but my gauge for judging how crappy a year was is probably a bit screwed up compared to others. 2010 wasn't a great year, and the only thing I can really say about it is that I finally moved out of South Carolina, hopefully for good. Other than that, 2010 was pretty "meh" for me. Some pretty crappy things happened, things I haven't talked about here because, well, I've been keeping a lot to myself and sort of hiding from everyone in a way, but nice things happened too. Nobody died, at least, and it does appear that everyone is relatively healthy.
I think this is the year that I realized how broken I am and have been for years, and I don't really mean that in a bad way. It's more that I see that there's things that need to be fixed and I have some healing to do, which I knew, I just didn't know how much. I've been forced to look at some ugly truths about myself, my past, and my family. It isn't pleasant, but then again, change and growth aren't always pleasant.
2011 looks like it might be a year that'll have some rough patches, but it also looks like it's going to be a good year.
No resolutions; I haven't made any of those since I was a kid. However, I do promise that I'm going to keep working on myself and working hard to make my life better, and I happen to believe my thirties are going to be way more awesome than my twenties could ever hoped to have been.
