Precious and Fragile Things

Zoe is still here. The vet said her muscles are weak from non-use and she's not using them because she's old and arthritic. He gave her a shot of anti-inflammatory medicine and gave me a ten-day supply of pain medicine to give her twice per day. At the end of those ten days, we'll evaluate whether she's doing better or about the same. If she's better, we'll continue on the pain pills until that's no longer doing the trick. If she's about the same or worse...well, then it'll be time to say good-bye. Either way, the vet said that pretty soon she just isn't going to be able to go anymore, but as long as she's still eating and drinking we can try the pain stuff. She has been able to get up and move around a little better since the shot and a dose of pain meds today, and her appetite is good. Now it's just a matter of wait and see.

Kiddo's speech therapist apparently has the plague along with her two kids, so he didn't have speech today after missing both sessions last week due to us having the plague. I told her not to worry (she sounded awful on the phone and I felt so bad for her, mostly because I was there a few days ago myself). He spent the day with Mom and had a blast as usual. I'm hoping he'll be easy to settle down for bed tonight. I think I might ask him to play a round of Mario Kart with me shortly.

I'm writing again. I'm not happy with what I've written, but I'll keep going anyway just to get it done with. It'll be posted to jade_inspired, but will be f-locked due to adult themes. I think it's going to be horrible really, but eh, it's something more than the nothing I've written for a while.

Still questioning my sanity over agreeing to GM in Triumph, but I guess I'm still willing to give it a shot. I've already had to issue a couple of warnings about subject matter in the OOC room (there is a "PG-13" rule in place), but so far no one's really protested. I haven't heard any rumblings of favoritism or anything like that. Then again we haven't really officially started yet, so I guess I better not hold my breath there. The real test will come when I have to exercise my GM muscle to make a tough decision.

I've got a lot on my mind. Grieving a friendship and beating myself up over my own stupidity for one thing, but that's something for a filter or for me to keep to myself. I also find myself drifting away from some people because I find that as I'm changing, I don't mesh quite so well anymore. Of course, that could just be because I've been so cranky the last few days.

Ok, well I'm off to do more writing, do some GM stuff, and possibly soak in a hot bath.